Interestings

Dave has been gone for about a week now and I thought I would HATE being alone in our apartment. Surprisingly, I have really enjoyed it. Not because I am glad he is gone, but because I haven't been alone in my own space, my own head, my own devices for a long time. I miss him, but I can handle being alone and actually forgot how much I enjoy my own company.

I bought a new pair of jeans and it moved something in me that I am intrigued by. I want a change. I feel like my creative outlets are not being expressed in a way that corresponds with my inner self. School and comfort has driven my style and life for too long! I need to change and remember that I am not just a student, unemployment doesn't define me, and I cannot wait to reconnect with my quirky and unique tastes that I have forgotten for so long.

I met new people this week. Really nice and new people. I think new people in my life are a must and I am really excited for the next shift I am feeling in my bones. Change is coming and I am not shying away, rather charging full force towards it!

Reading, reading, and reading. That's what I have been doing and LOVING it!!! I have caught up with the stacks books that I have ordered and had to shelve for months. I have absorbed them and words don't express how much I love to take a book with me everywhere in case I can steal a word or two in the grocery store, in the post office, or a 5 minute break at Starbucks. This is why I got the worlds largest purse, Nina, because she can hold at least 3 books and fit everything else comfortably.

I am itching to plan for the summer. Yes it's 6 months away, and yes it could be because it's 32 degrees here, but I am listing things I want to accomplish this summer and what I want to do before I no longer have a summer break.

Here is the short list:

1) Have Finny and Ms. Joan here for a visit. I owe Finny a trip and I haven't seen him in forever, but I couldn't stand not seeing Ms. Joan as an 8 year old. Oh how I miss those two...

2) Vacation. I will vacation somewhere. I am not looking for something amazing, in fact I really want to start my goal of finally visiting National Parks in the U.S. Somewhere, anywhere, but a vacation with Dave sounds like medicine I long for!

3) A weekend with my sister. Something over-indulgent, something we possibly can't afford, and something that makes me smile so much my face hurts. That is what I feel like I need with her. Relaxing and stupid amounts of fun.

4) Start two things for myself that I do by myself. I want to make a habit of something that can take me away from the intense work I am about to start. I need an outlet that can help me decompress and join society again. I have some ideas, and I will being trying out new things to perfect and assure that it will be exactly what I need.

That's it for now, just some things that have been pushing around and making my priority. What I see from these things is that I really need to remember who I am and be myself daily because I am loosing the essence of me.