I Hear They Call It: Empathy

I am trying to gain perspective and placing myself in others shoes. This is hard, hard stuff and I don't much like it, but it is necessary in order to move forward.

The shoes I am trying on:

-My Dad

-My Aunt Linda

-My Uncle Ron

-My Grandparents

-Dear Friends

Some shoes are too big, some are too tight, and some the color doesn't work for me, but a shoe, is a shoe, is a shoe, and they must be tried on. Thus, I am pushing onward and in the process, working towards bettering myself. I will fumble and I will say things I shouldn't, but I hope they try my shoes on and we work together. Wish me luck...

Waste

I made a big mistake tonight, I added up all of my school debt. Turns out, I should have invested in a profession that would at least make it possible to make monthly payments. Ugh. I hate that I chose this right now. Why couldn't I have chosen something dealing with business, science, or squid-fishing! Anything would pay more than the one thing I like and am good at. I am going to bed upset and distraught about my doom surrounding my inability to repay my education. I should have worked at McDonalds, I hear they have great benefits.

MEAN

Someone is threatening me on Facebook and I just hate it! They said they wanted to "kill you (me) bitch." Not only did this mystery person Facebook message me, but also my mom and mentioned Dani Jo in it!!!! This means that this person either, went to high school with me because they are mentioning Dani and I together, or they are really close to me and they know I was close to her in the past. I called Dani, and she has it too! Either way, I really feel icky. I feel violated and nervous. Please stop Facebook person. If I knew you in high school, I am sorry if I was mean. I was a different person with very different priorities going through a VERY tumultuous ordeal called "family" and "high school" all at once. If it is someone who I know now or know well, why? Talk to me, don't threaten me. I'm sorry if I sucked to whoever is doing this, but please stop. Your point was made. I get it.

Sad Story

Oh, come on! Is BILLIE BEATRICE really the best you could do? This is what disappointment looks like.

Surprise!

My vacation surprise was as follows:

TO SEE MY ANNIE FOR 4 WHOLE DAYS!!!!!!! That's right, I am going to LA for the first time in too long to see Annie and bask in her backyard of perfection, eat at the cafe, eat at Shenandoah's, eat at In-and-Out, watch movies, snuggle some cats, snuggle some dogs, walk in the sun, see the beach, read a book, ahhhhhhhh......

I have to give a huge shout-out to Dave for this lovely gift. For months I have gripped about not seeing my Annie and wanting to come see her but not knowing when, how or blah, blah, blah, blah! Times that by 50 and you know a little bit about Dave's past 3 months. I would have been happy with a weekend getaway for 2 to some secluded retreat, but he knows me all too well. Dave knows what I need to rejuvenate and because of this trip, I will rejuvenate the 2 of us. Thank you Dave for understanding I would favor this trip much more than others. I heart you and happy 6 years:)

Thanks Annie for housing us and being a part of my fun surprise:)

Things that Made me Smile Today and it's only 1pm:

1) Today marks 6 years of bliss with Dave:)

2) A quote from EP's blog about Anthro clothes...couldn't be more right:)

3) The quirky and over-priced wrapping paper I had Papyrus wrap Dave's boring anniversary gift in:)

4) Wishing EP's perfection of a sissy would just write books so I could devour her writing everyday in hardcover:)

5) Reliving last night's conversation with Miss Joan as she celebrated her monumental 8th birthday yesterday. She was all "totally" and "yea I know" and "for sure" including dramatic pauses and effect. Absolute bliss being a part of her life:)

6) Talking with my sister about senate bills before 10am and nodding along like I know what the hell she is talking about, but enjoying the conversation endlessly despite intellectual confusion:)

7) My mom answering the phone, "Global Service, this is Lori" when she has caller ID and knows it's me. Weird, but smile worthy:)

8) Last DVD of Big Love 3rd season:)

9) Empty laundry baskets. Not because I emptied them, but because Dave did last night, as I told him last week that I hate when they are full, because they look at me with their judgmental eyes and scream, "YOU WORTHLESS WOMAN, GET TO WORK!" :)

10) Watching Will and Fluff interact with each other in crazy pseudo-fights and odd cackling noises over their new cat toys. I have bits and pieces of neon green and yellow feathers ALL over the apartment, and when I got in the shower, I noticed these colors sliding towards the drain as they are attached to my feet:)

Have a great weekend! I will update soon as to what my surprise weekend is after Dave FINALLY fills me in tonight:)

Copy Cat

a month, I would be: December
a day of the week, I would be: Wednesday
a time of day, I would be: 5:40pm
a planet, I would be: Earth
a direction, I would be: West
a historical figure, I would be: Anna Freud
a liquid, I would be: iced tea
a tree, I would be: cherry tree
a plant, I would be: spanish moss
a flower, I would be: lily
a kind of weather, I would be: snowy and dry
a musical instrument, I would be: piano
an animal, I would be: a cat
a color, I would be: yellow
a fruit, I would be: watermelon
a sound, I would be: laughter
an element, I would be: oxygen
a song, I would be: Rhapsody On A Theme, Rachmaninov
a book, I would be: Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
a food, I would be: mashed potatoes or key lime pie
a place, I would be: a garden
a word, I would be: therapist
a scent, I would be: homemade bread
a body part, I would be: arms
an object, I would be: wooden rocking chair
a cartoon character, I would be: Alice
an event, I would be: a family vacation
a number, I would be: 4
an occupation, I would be: florist or a smutty magazine contributor
a mythological being, I would be: Hippocampus
a feeling, I would be: elated
a mineral, I would be: Quartz
a religious icon, I would be: I wouldn't be one.
an art form, I would be: oil on canvas
a symbol, I would be: asterisk
a constellation, I would be: Cygnus